Believe and be satisfied... annonymous

Everyone longs to give themselves completely to someone, to have a deep soul relationship with another, to be loved thoroughly and exclusively. But, to the Christian, God says,

“No, not until you are satisfied and fulfilled and content with living loved by Me alone, with giving yourself totally and unreservedly to Me, to have an intensely personal and unique relationship with Me alone. I love you, my child, and until you discover that only in Me is your satisfaction to be found, you will not be capable of the perfect human relationship that I have planned for you. You will never be united with another until you are united with Me – exclusive of any other desires and longing. I want you to stop planning, stop wishing, and allow Me to give you the most thrilling plan existing – one that you cannot imagine. I want you to have the BEST. Please allow Me to bring it to you. You keep watching Me, expecting the greatest things. Keep that satisfaction, knowing that I AM. Keep learning and listening to the things I tell you; and you must wait.

Don’t be anxious, and don’t worry. Don’t look around at the things others have gotten or that I have given them. Don’t look at the things you think you want. Just keep looking off and away and up to Me, or you’ll miss what I have to show you.

And then, when you’re ready, I’ll surprise you with a love far more wonderful than you would ever dream. You see, until you are ready, and until the one I have for you is ready (I am working right this minute to have both of you ready at the same time), and until you are both satisfied exclusively with Me and the life I’ve prepared for you, you won’t be able to experience the love that exemplifies your relationship with Me, and his is the perfect love.

And, My dear one, I want you to have this most wonderful love. I want you to see in the flesh a picture of your relationship with Me, and enjoy materially and sincerely the everlasting union of beauty and perfection and love that I offer you Myself. I love you utterly. I AM God Almighty.

Believe and be Satisfied.”

-Anonymous

I'm Home.

And all of a sudden its back.
I'm in love, and its a love like no other.
I cant get enough of you,
all of a sudden your word has come alive,
and I want so badly to discover every part of it.
I've missed this ever growing passion,
this love sweeping over every part of my being.
and I've never felt such satisfaction,
feeling your love as I run back home.

I want that back.

I'm looking for a hint of motivation,

Im searching for a piece of inspiration,

I want to fall in love,

with loving you again.

You died for me.

How can I find it so hard 

to live for you?

I want that love back,

I want this life to be more of you

and less of what I want.

I never thought you'd run.

I didn't realize that me letting go
would mean that you would run away.


I was tired of  fighting so hard to maintain this friendship,
when I wasn't even sure I belonged.

But I didn't think that would mean you would forget it ever happened,
it makes me wonder if you were really holding on in the first place.

I wonder if you ever would have been there to hold my hand when I couldn't walk alone,
or if that shoulder to cry on was all in my head.

So maybe it was time to let go,
I'll just stay here and you watch you run away.

perfect.

I           wish       our                   could           of        than
  really         that       relationship         consist    more


walking      eggshells.
             on




I        I            afraid    tell      that       not       perfect
wish    wasn't          to      you       I'm       the            girl


you've            wanted.
           always



And   wish       could     that  am            but     cant    perfect.
       I        you        see      I      trying,         I         be


I know that you love me despite all this. But i wish that you loved me for trying, rather than loving me despite the fact that my trying isn't good enough.

The Prodigal son...or at least how I see it.

 ¹⁹ I am no longer worthy to be called your son; make me like one of your hired servants.’ ²⁰ So he got up and went to his father. “But while he was still a long way off, his father saw him and was filled with compassion for him; he ran to his son, threw his arms around him and kissed him.²¹ “The son said to him, ‘Father, I have sinned against heaven and against you. I am no longer worthy to be called your son.


So this is just a tiny excerpt of the prodigals son, from Luke fifteen. I'm sure you've all heard the story before. Its pretty much my favorite ever. Sometimes I hate admitting it, but I feel like I can completely relate to the son in the story. I know I mess up all the time. And sometimes i get frustrated and turn away from my Daddy.. even though he's so perfect that he sent his son to die for me. But despite that, i sometimes mess up, and think I can do this without him. And sure enough, not too much later I realize just how much I need him. And i realize that he is everything I need. And everytime I feel incredibly stupid for forgetting this in the first place. And I feel ashamed to go back to my father and admit how much i've messed up. But somehow  his grace is always still there. The picture this story of the father running and just embracing his son is amazing. And its exactly how I feel everytime I go back to my Daddy. I feel his embrace, his grace, his love that endures no matter what. And that perfect love is what i find worth living for.

springing forward.

lately i find myself wishing i could go back.
I wish could have things the way they used to be.
Tonight its just an hour, 
but I feel like I'm always "springing forward"
into some unexpected situation
causing less sleep.
Somehow it seems like the time
isn't the only thing that's changing lately.