Friday, April 22, 2011

" Jesus paid it all"

  1. I hear the Savior say,
    “Thy strength indeed is small;
    Child of weakness, watch and pray,
    Find in Me thine all in all.”
    • Jesus paid it all,
      All to Him I owe;
      Sin had left a crimson stain,
      He washed it white as snow.
  2. For nothing good have I
    Whereby Thy grace to claim;
    I’ll wash my garments white
    In the blood of Calv’ry’s Lamb.
  3. And now complete in Him,
    My robe, His righteousness,
    Close sheltered ’neath His side,
    I am divinely blest.
  4. Lord, now indeed I find
    Thy pow’r, and Thine alone,
    Can change the leper’s spots
    And melt the heart of stone.
  5. When from my dying bed
    My ransomed soul shall rise,
    “Jesus died my soul to save,”
    Shall rend the vaulted skies.
  6. And when before the throne
    I stand in Him complete,
    I’ll lay my trophies down,
    All down at Jesus’ feet.

The backup plan...

So I have a confession. As much as I do want soo badly to fall in love, have a family, and live your average life.. I do have a back up plan. Despite the fact that I am a crazy hopeless romantic, and my ultimate lack of love life is quite frustrating, a little part of me is thinking theres a much easier way out.  So heres the thing.  I love cats.. like so much. And not only that, but they tend to love me back. My cat is actually sitting beside me purring right now, just as she has been for the past hour. This being said, wouldn't I make the greatest crazy cat lady ever?!?!?!?!? I mean I totally think I could pull it off. Just buy a creepy old house on a corner, and breed a whole bunch of cats! It'd be much easier that going through the heartache of boys! And theres something about cat,  thats just so great. Its like they have a sixth sense or something. Somehow my cat always knows  knows when i'm upset, and shows up in my room and awkwardly nuzzles herself against my arm. I don't know how she knows this, its borderline creepy, but I love it. Also, a cat is never going to argue with you, and you can vent to it all you like without feeling selfish for talking about yourself a lot.  Its perfect. Not to mention there kind of adorable. 

So there you have it. I secretly envy those stereotypical creepy cat ladies. Judge if you wish But i think its a great back up plan. I promise you though, that it is definitely just the back up plan. You can be sure that i will try my best to fall in love with a human before i result to this, despite the heartbreak it may cause. =)

Friday, April 15, 2011

keep your mind wide open =)

So I'll be the first to admit it. I'm the queen of assumptions, the master of pre- judgements,or any other cheesy title you can think of along those lines. So of course yesterday, when I was told that the entire female student body was attending a Women's conference, I was far from excited. And obviously since I am the Queen of assumptions, i had to be right! Or not....   It was actually really great. I left feeling rather inspired. It was  cheesy, I'll admit that. But I mean I'm lactose intolerant; i've gotta get me cheese somehow!!!! okay worst joke ever. But I was really happy, and this even gave me a lot to think about, and somewhat of a new outlook. Also I heard a great joke, from the best teacher/ vice principal a person could have who is pretty much a gigantic inspiration to me.. and lucky for you all, i found it on the internet, so I'm going to share it =) I'm warning you, it is a little cheesy.. but i love it!! But first.. lesson of the day: I shouldn't make pre judgements, because apparently i'm not the queen of making accurate ones after all.

The W.C joke.

Sometime ago, an English school teacher, looking for rooms in a small town in Switzerland, asked the local school headmaster to make recommendations. He showed her several different places and she finally settled on a small but charming cottage not far from the town centre.
However, on her way home, it occurred to her that she didn't notice a Water Closet ("WC"), so she immediately sent an email to the headmaster to ask if there was a WC in or near the cottage.
On receiving the email, the headmaster was troubled, because he was not totally familiar with many English abbreviations. He then decided to ask his friend, the local parish Priest, for assistance. After considerable discussion and deliberation, they concluded that the lady was referring to a "Wayside Chapel" (a place of worship), so they sent her the following reply:
"I am delighted to inform you that the WC is situated only 2 miles from the cottage you rented, and it is set amongst a beautiful grove of trees with wonderful scenery, and it is capable of seating up to 250 people, however there is also standing room for another 100 people. In fact, sometimes it is so busy, we actually have people standing outside the open doors peering inside to observe the various proceedings inside !
The WC only opens on Wednesdays and Sundays and I hope this will not inconvenience you if you are used to going more regularly. On the other hand, I'm sure you will be pleased to know that many people even bring their lunch with them and make a day of it, while others who cannot spare so much time often arrive by car just in time. I would highly recommend that you visit the WC on Sundays, as there is always an organ accompaniment. With such huge pipes, the sound quality is truly excellent and even the most delicate sounds can be heard audibly by everyone.
It may interest you to know that my daughter was married in our WC and it was actually there that she met her husband ! I remember the day quite well, because there was a rush for seats and there were 12 people sitting where only 10 would usually sit, and it was wonderful to see the expressions of happiness on their faces.
My father has been a regular visitor to our WC since he was a young boy, and he recently donated a bell to commemorate the 50th anniversary of his first visit, and the bell rings every time somebody enters the WC. A bazaar will be held during the time of your visit in order to raise funds to help to upgrade the seating, as some residents feel  the seats are somewhat hard and uncomfortable in their present state.
My wife, who is rather delicate, can't attend as often as she would like. It has been six months since her last visit and I can assure you this situation pains her greatly.
Anyway I shall be delighted to reserve a seat for you next to me in our WC during your visit.
With my warmest regards,

PS: Remember to bring your camera, as I am sure you will want to keep a memento of your visit to our WC. If you don't have a camera, do not worry, as our newspaper editor attends every session of the WC and he usually publishes selected photographs in our town newspaper "The Sentinel".

Wednesday, April 13, 2011

A story under a shell.

So today I went to the library. I didn't have a crazy amount of time, so I was mostly just walking around, observing things... okay so I'll admit it, I was observing people. I'm a little bit of a creep like that. Its amazing though, the diversity of people you see in a library. In my like three minutes I managed to see:

- A couple of girls studying over coffee.
- A little girl sprawled across the floor, completely enthralled by Robert Munsch.
- A man who was probably twenty five, sitting and sucking his thumb.
- A mom with four young kids, trying to juggle them as they screamed about whose turn it is to choose the movie.
- A twentyish ( and I'll admit, ridiculously handsome) man reading about mechanics of some sort.
-A teenagish girl crying over a romance book.
- Some older ladies gossiping about how rigged the communities in bloom competition is.

So my thought. All of these people have a story. Every single one of them has joys, confusion, trials, heartbreak, secrets,  temptation, amongst other emotions within that shell that I saw. A persons image is really just that.. an image. It doesn't nessacarily  mean anything at all. The stories within those images could be so amazingly different then anything i could assume.   Its crazy  that God knows all of these things, about all of these people.  He could recite  their stories back to you better than they could. And he loves them more then anyone else ever could. Every single one of them.  He loves each person individually, not for how they appear, but for who they are, and who he has created them to be. I know this probably seems like a concept you hear all the time, but God showed it to me today.. and i thought it was cool =)

Tuesday, April 12, 2011

the edge.

I'm trying not to be  frustrated.
 I want so badly to not let this phase me.
I know I need to leave my whole life in the hands of my father.
And Somewhere in me I know that he knows what he's doing.
But I cant take much more,
I feel like I'm slowly being pushed over the edge.
I Dont know what will happen if I fall.

Monday, April 11, 2011

my least favourites..


reliance on the integrity, strength, ability, surety, etc., of aperson or thing; confidence.
confident expectation of something; hope.
confidence in the certainty of future payment for property orgoods received; credit: to sell merchandise on trust.
a person on whom or thing on which one relies: God is my trust.

Well thats what the dictionary says anyways. If i were to write the dictionary it would be more like "Trust:  The most valuable thing that pretty much holds your life together.  Despite its value, it is extremely easy to take advantage of. When you break it, you automatically feel horrible about yourself."


depressed or discouraged by the failure of one's hopes orexpectations: a disappointed suitor.

Once again, if i were to write the dictionary... "disappointed: The only word that can make you feel about eighty times worse then anything said in anger. When inflicted upon you, has a tendency to make you feel like the suckiest daughter in the world. The last thing you want to come out of your mothers mouth."

This is me  making incredibly stupid descisions.


Saturday, April 9, 2011

a penny for my thoughts:movies.. well minus the penny

So movie night with mom= love.
But I have a thought. I honestly cannot remember the last time I watched a movie where people weren't sinning for fun. Like actually, in almost every movie you watch, people are doing "it" (fill in here please [:) amongst other things, just for fun! Or even just swearing, it just the most normal things in movies (well in the real world too.. but thats not the point) And for some strange reason i get my entertainment from this? I Don't get how we get enjoyment from watching people sin, but in all honesty i do.  I definitely smiled  when the perfect couple slept together after the first date, and laughed at the crazy drunk people making stupid mistakes. Why?  I really don't know. I know that both of the above are wrong, and I try to avoid being around that stuff in real life. But for some reason I get my entertainment from watching it. And I'm pretty sure thats not right. I want to surround myself with things that Glorify my savior; not be entertained  by watching people sin against him.

Thursday, April 7, 2011


Right now I'm sitting here,  upset about things in my life. Thinking about how not fair it is that sucky stuff has to happen sometimes. Wondering  why thinks cant work out how I'd like them to.. just for once.  Sulking in my own self pity of how my life didn't turn out as I expected it too.

Ironically enough, I'm also sitting here half an hour into a thirty hour famine. An event to raise support for kids in third world countries with nothing. Trying to help girls who   are already trying to raise a family with little to no resources. Or even kids left completely alone, with no family to help them get by.   all they want is too live.

REALITY CHECK?? : Im starting to think i need to stop complaining.

Monday, April 4, 2011

Shoutout: sooo nervous

If anyone happens to read this before ten o clock tomorow morning, it would be awesome if you would pray that my drivers test would go okay. Rightt now, I am insanely nervous, I honestly have no idea if I'll pass or not. So yeah, if you could pray, that would be awesome and a half =)