Monday, December 20, 2010


homenoun, adjective, adverb, verb, homed, hom·ing.

–noun : any place of residence or refuge.
~Lately ive been thinking a lot about what home means to me. Does my home have to be a house? Does it even have to be a place? When I see this defintion, and think of my place of refuge,  just one thing comes to mind; God.  When  i need refuge, protection, or just some love,  i love to look to God, because I know i will find all of the above. No matter where i am, when I am alone with God whether praying, or doing devotions, i feel like I'm at home. I feel like my fathers loving arms can be my place of residence when i need  it the most, and my refuge in the wildest of storms. And that is enough for me!

Saturday, December 18, 2010

the most wodnerful time of the year*

Its the most wonderful time of the year.
The busy shopping mall?
The material obsessions?
The chaotic parties?

the smiles.
the laughter.
the families.
the promise of a lifetime,
a life time that will last forever.
the best gift you could get.

Its the most wonderful time of the year.

Friday, December 17, 2010

stellar kart.

So I'm a day late, at least a buck short.
 I've got no Chance to make this on my own.
I don't have it made, I'm nowhere near the shade .
will you step in this life and take ccontrol?

Are you still there and do you care about what I'm feeling now?
 I'd like to see what i could be without this holding meDown,
 but I'm too scared of taking this chance and failing.

I'm always waiting
Procrastinating i feel so
Useless on my own.

 You're always waiting just in time
To save me I'm not so useless
I'm not alone

---thankyou. stellarkart. for. reciting. my. life. story.---

Thursday, December 16, 2010

all for...

 16 For God so loved the world that he gave his one and only Son, that whoever believes in him shall not perish but have eternal life.
-John 3:16

So this is the most common verse ever right? I'm pretty sure I'm not alone when i say that I've been mindlessly reciting it since  like age four. But what we don't realize, is that this is the promise of a lifetime, all for us
God sent his one and only son, the perfect lamb, to come and live among us, in this sinful world, but remain perfect and pure, all for us.
But  we rejected this perfect child, this light unto the world, the best gift anyone could ask for. We rejected him, rejected his word, and his promises for us. We rejected him to the point that we crucified him. He was crucified on a cross, because we wanted this world, all for us.
But his death was our second chance. Because he died, we don't have too. Well maybe to this world, but, because of his death, we are promised eternal life, in a place of perfection. He died, so that we could live, completely selflessly. all for us.
And for this promise, can we not for once make this all about us? all about our worldly needs and desires? He did this all for us,
so i want to live all for him.

Monday, December 13, 2010


im looking for inspiration.
waiting for a hint of motivation.
I want to make a change.
I want the world to know I'm different.
And most of all, i want it to be for him
and his glory alone.
For it is he who saves
and through his blood, his body, his life
lives are made new.
And we can be his disciples
A light unto the world.
Now  i just need to start.

Sunday, December 12, 2010

Christmas lists.

"Don't store up treasures here on earth, where moths eat them and rust destroys them, and where thieves break in and steal. Wherever your treasure is, the desires of your heart will also be."
-Matthew 6:19-21

"Yet true godliness with contentment, is in itself great wealth. After all, we brought nothing with us when we came into this world, and we cant take anything with us when we leave it. So if we have enough food and clothing, let us be content."
- 1 Timothy 6:6-8

"Those who love money, will never have enough. How meaningless to think that wealth brings true happiness! The more you have, the more people come to help you spend it. so what good is wealth- except perhaps to watch it slip through your fingers?
-Ecclesiastes 5: 10-11

With Christmas coming, its soo easy to long for material things, and i often find myself thinking so much about what i want, or what would make me look so much better, and sometimes even complaining about a lack of stuff. Its so easy to forget that that the holiday are really about the birth of our savior. The king of kings, that was born in a manger, the most plain, not extravagant materialistic birth a child can have. And then he saved our lives. And he saved it so that we could have an eternity bout a gazillion times better than any material things we Can create now. but it seems like this holiday is being used instead, to show that his promise of eternity isn't good enough, so we need to have all we can on this earth. Christmas should be about the birth of a savior, and if anything, a reminder that we don't need material possessions to be happy. but here i am, writing a Christmas list.

Friday, December 10, 2010

you've got a friend in me =]

"Each friend represents a world in us, a world possibly not born until they arrive, and it is only by this meeting that a new world is born."- Anais Nin

--- Sooo i probably have the greatest friends ever.  I'm realizing lately, that theres no better feeling  than being with someone, and knowing you don't have to be anyone but yourself. Its an amazing feeling to be completely comfortable with  a person, because you know they've seen all sides of you, and still choose to be there one hundred percent of the time. I'm learning that friendship isn't about learning how to fit in, its about realizing theres a spot where you fit in perfectly. And that, is what i think I'm starting to find. =) ----

Thursday, December 9, 2010

Just a star is all*

" so that you may become blameless and pure children of God without fault, in a warped and crooked generation. Then you will shine among them like stars in the sky!"

this is probably my favorite verse as of right now. There are no words to describe the beauty of a star, and the way the light up the night sky. Without them, the night sky would just be dark and plain, rather than the oustandingly beautiful work of art, so obviously designed by our wonderful creator.

I feel like this verse is saying we can do the same for this world. So many people today are living for nothing, not seeing the eternity in heaven that God has prepared for those who live for him. This nothing  is dark and empty, like a sky with no stars. But as Christians, we know that this world is just the beginning, but never the less, it is a place to glorify his name. By living with purpose, that purpose being for him, we are lighting up this world, and making it more than just a dark place, full of corruption; but rather the absolutely amazing place, that God has given us to shine in.*

And anyways, who wouldn't want to be considered like a star?

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Wednesday, December 8, 2010

"he is my loving ally and my fortress
my tower of safety, my rescuer,
he is my shield, and i take refuge in him."

                                                        "He rescues them from all their troubles,
                                                          the Lord is close to the brokenhearted;
                                                          he rescues those whose spirits are crushed"
"Give all your cares and worries to God,
for he cares about you."

                                                        "The Lord is my helper, so i will have no fear;
                                                          what can mere people do to me?"

                                My Father is all of these, all of this,
                                    Because he only wants the best,
                                                For his princess.

Tuesday, December 7, 2010

He's Got it =)

I'm going to stop trying to figure out what my life is going to be like.

Every time I think ive got something figured out on my own,
God has this impressive way of letting me know who's boss.

And the best part is, he does it because he cares,
because he cares sooo much, and I know he only wants the best.

He knows his plan is in my best interest,
even when I forget that myself.

His love for me never ends, and i want him in charge.

"Why, you do not even know what will happen tomorrow. What is your life? You are a mist that appears for a little while and then vanishes.  Instead, you ought to say, “If it is the Lord’s will, we will live and do this or that."-- James 4: 14-15

Monday, December 6, 2010

heres to best friends, boots, and bathroom sinks!

this is for you.
In one short year, you've changed my life.

You make me smile, on the worst of days,
and turn those bad days good

We could laugh so hard we cried,
or cry so hard we laughed.

but either way, i know you ll stand by my side
And i hope you know how much this means

"there are friends who destroy each other,
but a real friend sticks closer than a brother."
-Proverbs 18:24

iloveyou--- thanks for being you!

Sunday, December 5, 2010


              i forget
                    to stop
                           and smell
                                  the roses.
and remember the thorns on those roses.
Just like the ones my savior wore as a crown
And make this crazy life possible.

Saturday, December 4, 2010


Whatever happens,
I just want to be happy.

No matter how this plays out,
I want to be able to look on the bright side.

Someday when I'm old and gray,
i want to look back on life and smile.

No matter matter what this life throws at me,
happy is all i want.

Thursday, December 2, 2010

this is it.

" Then jesus said to his disciples, If any of you wants to be my follower, you must turn from your selfish ways, pick up your cross, and follow me. If you try to hang onto your life, you will lose it. but if you give up your life for my sake, you will save it"  matthew 16: 24-25

                                       ~ Im gving it all to you, because you're all ive got.~

                                                             --your love is all i need--
                                                                  * King of Kings*

                                                                       My Father


Tuesday, November 2, 2010

"When one door of happiness closes, another opens, but often we look so long at the closed door that we do not see the one that has been opened for us."~Helen Keller~

Monday, November 1, 2010

Top Ten Reasons I am possibly the largest Nerd on this Planet =)

10. I have this rather freakish obsession with cardigans, and own one in nearly every color of the rainbow
9. I quite love debating social, political and economical issues, at any point in my day!
8. Sometimes i go under my blankets and use my phone as a light to stay up late reading =)
7. I most deffinately went through a two year Braces aaaannd glasses phase.
6. I occasionally sing along to my ipod in public
5. I would rather read a book than watch a movie
4. Today I wore socks with flats to school
3. I usually read books while walking to school
2.  I almost never wear my backpack with just one strap on like the cool kids ;)
1. I have read Pride and Prejudice four times over, and still love it too pieces!!

Sunday, October 31, 2010

this is me.

So in all honesty, i couldn't for the life of me tell you who "me" is right now.  Between school, friends, family, and a whole bunch of other things; growing up and finding my identity was more complicated than i thought! I always figured that by the time I was sixteen I would have this life business figured. Obstacles wouldn't be a problem, and id  just be ready to finish high school and get on with my life, id just have a plan all figured out! What i didn't get, and sometimes still forget, is that I don't make my plans, God does. And he made them a loong time ago. Psalms 139:15 says, " You saw me before I was born. Everyday of my life was recorded in your book. Every moment was laid out before a single day had passed." So I'm starting to think that growing up isn't about discovering what you want to do with your life, its about discovering what God wants with your life. Im learning that he has this awesome plan laid out,  and its about a gazillion times better than what we can get from this world! But because of the temptations of this world, his plan for our life isnt always easy. And both decisions you make, and those that those close to you make, can make for some major speed bumps on our walks with God. But for me, its about knowing he's there with you through all situations, and its all worth it in the end!! So I'm ready to follow his plan, and make my life God centered, Rather than earth centered. Because for me, thats the biggest, and best choice a person can make! I'm not so sure where I'm going, When im going anywhere but here, or why, but I'm turbo excited to see what God has planned, and umm I'm gonna try and give this blogging thing a shot in  case you want to see what God's doing in my life too! <3